Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired!!

I'm sitting here with a massive headache, sore throat, about to lose my breakfast nauseated, feeling beyond tired, coughing, ears throbbing sickness on top of feeling weak, dizzy, and in pain. I have to tell you-I'M SICK OF IT!!! You know the old saying, "At least you have your health?" Well, that usually doesn't apply to me. I'm lucky to have a couple days a month of normalcy. Something is always going on in my body: chronic infections, stomach problems, sickness, or just the pain and weakness of lupus. I know having an auto-immune disorder makes me catch everything easier, but come on, I need a break. I tease my mom for passing along her bad genes to me. I pray that I don't continue passing along the bad genes to my kids. I would rather have it twice as bad in me if only my kids would be spared. My poor Carlee is still sick with the flu and is really struggling to get better. I really worry that she's going to be the one with the weak immune system. It seems she already is. Plus the poor girl is plagued with her eczema which makes her miserable every day. I hope she gets better soon!

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Alright I guess I'll quit my whining now. I just needed to vent a little. I'm usually pretty good at remembering my personal motto, "There is always someone worse off than you." It keeps me in check as I try to move forward. I also wonder if my poor health is just God's way of telling me to slow down and appreciate what I do have. Instead of thinking, "At least I have my health", I'll think, "At least I have two beautiful children." I couldn't ask for anything better than that!

2 of you hit me up with a comment.:

Rhonda said...

You really need to have a blessing and so does Carlee!!!

Mandy Lin said...

I second Rhonda and also think that it is good for you to vent. So vent away!!